curlygirl's Cancer Blog
July 19, 2008
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It was bound to happen eventually, and Thursday was the day. After getting the news from the doctor, I was finally able to relax and on came the tears. I’m a well-known crier, but I have cried very little during this whole adventure. I wasn’t holding it in—I just didn’t feel the need to cry.
But on Thursday, all the waiting and avoiding the what-ifs finally caught up with me. When I think about it now, I realize that I was holding a posture similar to that of the Statue of Liberty or Winged Victory (with arms, though). I was positive and strong and moving forward in a purposeful way, which is all exactly what I would have wished for myself, but I never relaxed!
So Thursday I let myself cry as much as I wanted. Then when that started getting old, I went to the mall for a little retail therapy. It helped to finally be out of the house and among the living, doing normal-people things again. I was still a little down for the rest of the day, but I suspect that it was related to a reduction in the amount of adrenaline coursing through my system. By yesterday (Friday), after a good night’s sleep, I was in a much better mood again.
Of course, I completely overdid it on Friday, so today will have to be a rest day. It’s too hot to weed, anyway, right? (Just say yes.) Learning to rest. Learning to go with the flow of events and emotions. Learning to accept help. Learning that everything on my to-do list does not have the same urgency and learning to leave the less urgent things for later. There’s so much learning involved in having cancer! So, I’m off to practice resting now. We’ll see how it goes!
10.14.08 - 
Auntie Carole 
Thanks for your support -
I’m so excited about your good news. If you have to have cancer, you’ve got the best type, as my doctor would say. I was diagnosed July 18, 2007, with the same type you have. The only problem with mine is that I’m Her2 positive which takes too long to explain. The bottom line is that I’ll continue to get one drug every three weeks for a year or more. I’m not complaining! I finished 6 months of chemo and 6 weeks of radiation this past April. I’m glad you won’t have to have chemo, although I had very few problems with it. And the radiation was a breeze——-I’m hoping your’s will be, too. Enjoy your new feeling of relief and just enjoy living! :)
a good cry and some retail therapy. Sounds like a pretty nice day. ;-)